Part II-Section VI

It happened at last. Finally, I got the confirmation I have been looking for confirming O' Brien as a rebel. When I first ran into him, I was unusually nervous. His large stature combined with his Inner Party status was intimidating. Knowing I was either about to make a fool of myself and end up dead or have the chance to make a difference was almost too much for my weakened heart to bear. Although I still cannot be certain entirely of O' Brien's rebellious nature due to the lack of detail we shared at the meeting, at least I know I am one step closer to change. If this conspiracy is real, maybe much more is true. Maybe O' Brien and I will meet out of the darkness one day. I can only hope that rebellion is near, and I will no longer deal with this wretchedly corrupt society. I feel extremely anxious for our next meeting, for it will the time I finally know for certain if I might as well end my life. Big Brother is too much to take any longer. The long hours, the lack of Julia, the lack of privacy, the lack of individualism, the lack of everything--all perfectly logical reasons to tear down this untruthful empire that was built based on cheating and shaky moral grounds.