Part II-Section VIII

It is all true! It is all true! O' Brien wants change as do I and the Brotherhood exists. I feel so excited for what is about to follow. As I stood and listened intently to O' Brien in his luscious home, I felt no fear. I felt that I was no longer a loaner nor an outcast, I felt that I had a place in this society. Of course, my place in society was to change society, but that doesn't matter as of now. For the first time since my meeting with Julia in the country, I felt safe and secure in O' Brien's home. The lack of the telescreen was a godsend. Not all is perfect however. I am fearful of losing Julia once we begin working as part of the Brotherhood. I do not want to lose her for a rebellion which I am certain will never change my own life. But then again, something needs to be done. I do not want to wait the rest of my life wondering what if, while feeling complete hatred of my life. I want equality, the equality the Inner Party members have even if it means death. Julia and I will work things out, I hope. Even if we never see each other again, surely, it will not be any different than the future we have ahead of us now. I know in the back of my mind that we can never end up together, so why would I give up my passion to change society and defeat Big Brother once and for all? I feel ready to make a difference and excited to enter the realms of the Brotherhood. Soon, there will be color in the world and equality for all.